What I learnt in this 18 years

Ah, I cant sleep. I feel like talking to someone but its 1:45am. No ones up except my brother. Well, I feel like talking about serious thing. but Im half asleep. you might not understand what I am saying. well, if you are expecting this funny or rondom, dont read it. too boring. no pics no jokes on this post I think. this is kinda my english writing practise... my english is getting worse than ever.

Well, what makes me write about this 18 years is this situation. I am moving to the new house, from the house which I lived in for 13years. actually 11 years coz I was in NZ for 2 years. well, I found my old fotos, old drawings, essays, lots of memories.
Fotos were soo nice. I was always with my brothers. I liked playing with my brothers. almost in all photos, I was smiling. well, starting a kindergarten, I had a friend from overseas. but he speaks in Japanese I think. I remember his Birthday is same some as mine, September. I was talking about him with mum yesterday. acording to her, everyone got jelous to him coz I was always playing with him. wow, was I popular in kindergraten? Dont think so. What I remember is that a boy bit me in my back, that I ate cucumber from the school garden and ate it with insect (thats y I hate cucumber now), that the principal of a kindergarten hates green pepper. about finishing kindergarten, I moved to this house. I had a dog, and a Chicken which flew to my house one day. but I had to say Good bye to this Chicken coz my dog might bite her. so we took her to the small zoo.
well starting, primary school. in japan, you have to go to primary school for 6 years. I was really good boy in primary school. did all HW. got top or second top marks. I really liked studying. and also I liked the girl sitting next to me for 6 years.(you dont move classroom every subject in japan. teachers move) well, I saw her 3days ago. but didnt talk much, I was in hurry.
Well, around grade 5 age, I sometimes had incredibly negative thinking. like "No one wants to talk with me. I have no friends." really. I really cared about REACTION others do when I talk. Of course I had good friends. and I wasnt always negative. Acording to my essay, I wanted to be musician, actor, comedian, and veteinarian. and I was saying 'I wanna go to England' wow. yes. finally.
Well, starting a junior high school(3years), I changed a lot. I started sleep in the class, and didnt do any HW. sometimes didnt go to school. that wasnt fun. on first year, I was in athletics club. I was a high-jumper. I did quite well. but I suddenly stopped. dont know y. I think I didnt like the coach. I dont have many good memories with junior high school. but its true that even bad experiences make me grow up. done loads of mistakes, but now I am.
okay then high school, I got in international course coz I wanted to go abroad. after getting in high school, I changed alot in good way. become very positive and started doing what I want to do without caring anything. well, I constituted music club. then 2 months after constituting this club, I was accepted as an exchange student. haha, so I just left this club. Irresponsible.
wow finally, I came to NEW ZEALAND. well, you know that I couldnt speak ANY in english. I really wished I had studied more english in japan. well that was too late. with everyones help, I can speak C english now. I know lots of C words. thanx Sam, if you are reading this. In NZ, what I most learnt is 'What friends are'. having no friends first being in NZ, and found hard to make "Good friends", I learnt what friends are. I could find REAL friends in NZ.and also I could find real friends in Japan. not the superficial friends. God give us HW to let us grow up. it cant be too easy, either too hard. I think we are doing WorkBook which will take all our life to finish.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Im sooo sleepy now.
I think I shud sleep.
daaa
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